Josh and Lindsay's Wedding

I am the wedding coordinator for my friend's Josh and Lindsay's wedding. Tonight was their rehearsal dinner, and it was such a blessing to be apart of their special day. I love watching how the Lord has brought special people together so they can best glorify him together. 

I know them both from church. Lindsay was one of the first people that I met when I came here and was blown away by her wisdom and intelligence. Josh is like my older brother. He came here in August last year to be an intern for the church. We took swing dance lessons together in the fall and that was how I was able to get to know him. I found it kind of odd that a hard-core navy man would be taking swing dance lessons, but come to find out, he did it for Lindsay...Awww. 

It's always hard to be at those...single. But praise God that I have the ability to come to my Heavenly Father and talk about my desires to Him and He will understand and empathize with me. At the dinner table it was my new found friend, Brook, her boyfriend Nathan (groomsman),  Philip (groomsman), a friend Josh, and my friend Shane (groomsman), and then me. After dinner was served and everyone was full, we began to share testimonies about how we know Josh and Lindsay and also to encourage them in their new life together. It was special to hear about all the stories that led up to their meeting and engagement and now marriage. It's all so beautiful...of course, that could just be the romantic in me. But as I was sitting at the table listening to the stories, I began to think about my own rehearsal dinner and what people would say about me and my future hubby and our story of how we met. I then began to yearn for that day to come and so I prayed and told God my desires. I so desire to be married someday. I want to be a back bone of support for a godly man. I want to have 4 kids and have my house be crazy with madness. I am a nanny now for 7 kids (3 one day and 4 another), and I love it! I just want to be a mom now. During the stories, many people exhorted them with scripture like ones about how finding a wife is a good thing and a godly woman is of great virtue. Now, my title for my blog is "Aspiring Ruby". I hope one day, a man will be able to look at me as someone is exhorting us with that same scripture and he'll think and praise God for the woman he found in me. I hope I can be that woman for that special man someday. 

I feel like my heart is so ready to start loving someone that way and falling in love, but for some reason, my Sovereign God doesn't think so right now. And that's ok. I'd rather be in His will, then outside of it and not happy or joyful. I know my loving Father knows what's best for me. I have to make the choice to trust him, and I will. But I can't wait for the day of my wedding rehearsal, and better yet, the actual day of my wedding. I am reminded of how we need to be making ourselves ready for the return of Christ which will be even sweater than an earthly union. So right now, as a single woman of God, I am making myself ready for the ultimate return of the lover of my soul who went through utter torture so I wouldn't have to. 

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