The Box

Tonight was a good night...well definitely not in terms of my paper that is due on friday, but a good night nontheless. 

I went running around 5 and didn't get back till 7:30! Woo!! Don't be too impressed though. I ran 6 miles (from my house to the Lincoln memorial and back) and then I went to the gym to work other muscles. I'm trying to get back to running 10 miles with out and problems. It's gonna take me a while. I realize that my shoes were completely wrong for my foot. The dude at the running store kept giving me a half size bigger and it made my feet feel just lost in my shoe and really awkward when I ran. 

Anyway, that felt really good to go for a long run tonight and then to the gym to do some other stuff. It was nice pretending that homework didn't exist in my life for one night. Have I mentioned that I CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO BE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ah!!!! Only 6 more months, Lord willing!!! 

After I got home from my run, I had some dinner and then watched some TV for a bit (Meredith got TiVo so it's kinda addicting now). I decided this morning that today would be the day that I was going to get rid of "the box". This box I have been carrying around for... ... ... 4 years!!! Holy Cow!! This box contained two years of my life and was packed with memories. I'm kind of a sentimental girl, so I keep things that mean a lot to me. Well, this box contained a two-year relationship I had in college. I was excited to get rid of it because it has been haunting me for the last 4 years, but was never willing to give it up. As I was going through it, I started reading over notes and looking at pictures and all the little things he did for me. It was an emotional time. Not because I was tearful, but because I experience a wide variety of emotions. I guess I was just frustrated and sad. This boy was so thoughtful. He was consistent in writing me notes during my day to let me know he was praying for me or he thought I was the most beautiful girl. He daily encouraged me in the Word. He was careful to let me know how much I meant to him. Why did I keep all that stuff for that long? Maybe because I don't think anyone will ever treat me like he did or better than he did so it was just a good reminder of what it was like. But I'm not trusting God with that. I'm not relying on the Lord and the fact that He has treated me so far beyond all I deserve. He has given me a new life in Christ! 

I didn't think that getting rid of that box would be as hard as it was. I was saying goodbye to A LOT of memories. Everything that I kept would bring back some kind of memory. It was so strange. But very heart breaking getting rid of all of it. 

Thankfully, it's all gone! Now, I press on into the future. 

♥