My Heart

Man, I love Sunday's. Especially in DC! They are just always beautiful, and even if the weather isn't all that great, it's ok because it's great just to get to go to my church, hear the Word of God, and fellowship with other believers. I wish everyday was Sunday. 

This morning, I had decided to go to the parenting class (it's our "sunday school"). I know what you're thinking. 

"Really, Jenny? Parenting? Do you need to tell us something?" 

No, no. It's nothing like that at all. Our church actually encourages the singles to attend the parenting class, and I'm really glad I did. It was really encouraging and just a great way to learn about how to parent kids someday. Today's class was all about the heart and dealing with the issues of the heart in your children. Well, even though, I'm not a parent...

::Sidenote. So I was sitting there also kinda wondering why I was in that class too. I was in one of the front rows and looking around me and there were maybe 2 other single people in there and a few that were dating and the rest were married. I felt like everyone was wondering why I was in that class. I'm not even near dating anyone and children are far, far, far off in the future. So all that to say, I honestly felt kinda silly being in there.::: (sidenote, ended)

So after I brushed those thoughts away, I was really glad I ended up in that class. I think the Lord is teaching me a lot about my heart right now. It's in a sad state. I mean, not that I'm struggling with depression, but just that it's really sinful. As the verse goes, "out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks." It's true, ya know. We talked about our speech in youth group on Friday night. I know I'm not a youth, but the message still applies to me. We talked about how sometimes we say things and then immediately wish we could rewind what just happened. I do that all. the. time. My words are often selfish and then that's a good indicator of where my heart is. On myself. 

What do I need to do to fix this? I need to be in the Word more. I need to hide God's Word in my heart, and from that my mouth will speak what the Spirit is growing inside of me. 

The verse that was spoken over this morning in Core Seminar was Proverbs 4:23, "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." If I guard my heart from sinfulness, then what will flow from it is a heart that is centered around Christ. I need to guard my heart against the devil and his lies that he throws at me or his temptations that he puts in front of my eyes or the sinfulness that creeps into my life. So...what's the guard then? The guard is God's Word. The Truth. The Bread of Life. This is what will guard my heart. 

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